What does one do when they have two unpublished manuscripts? Well, the answer is obvious isn't it?!
You merge them.
That's right, you merge them.
Oh, my goodness, about two years ago I had the bright idea to do this and I write this with considerably less confidence in the present (actually, I think my confidence has even dwindled since the opening paragraph).
So, why would anyone do such a thing you may wonder?!?! Well, let me tell you. Tears from the Sea was the first novel I ever wrote—BBBTB was the second, but it was picked up first. I am very proud of TFTS. I believe in it and its characters; I just need to find a publisher who shares this belief. I will add…when I began slogging TFTS 10 years ago human trafficking was not as much on the radar as it is today. Combine this with... my focus shifted to bringing BBTB out in the world therefore, by the time, I was ready to come back to TFTS a novel about the tsunami seemed outdated and needed to be reworked.
Technically, Visions in the Wind is my third novel and after I completed it I felt that it wasn’t long enough. Now, I can appreciate the obvious way to look at this situation would be to ADD MORE COPY. And, I considered this. But concluded—I had the content I wanted, and I didn’t want to build on Nonosbawsut’s story just to make it longer.
There you have it. A novel to short and a novel that needed to be reworked hence, ‘The Merger.' As mentioned, this was my rationale two years ago and then life got busy again and I put my writing on hold (this does not help one’s creative spirit), which brings me back to the present trying to unleash a creative spirit that doesn't seem to want to go anywhere.
As I re-examine the novel now called currents of change I still I don't have that OMG...I love it feeling! I believe it’s because I haven't sewn it together in the right way. I absolutely refuse to believe that it’s because I shouldn’t have done it. This brings me back to the polishing process and apparently, the exact same head space I was two years ago when I had this bright idea.
So the words remain stuck in my head because they have taken up residence with the little voice that's still telling me, 'This is crap.' What have you done? It's loud. It's so loud in my head I haven't been able to be as productive as I would like. I keep coming back to this same little question that is actually quite a BIG question...AM I CRAZY!?
I'd liked to think not. I'm not going to stand tall because...I am a believer in me. I am a believer in currents of change.
Do you think I'm crazy?
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